Happiness is not a matter of having all the answers

Do you remember a time when you thought you had the world figured out, only to discover you didn’t?

In my life, I’ve blessed to have been given the opportunity to live, love, and laugh exactly how I wanted to. Although, there have been many times when I was not sure if all of those things were going to happen at the same time.

I had convinced myself that I was happy because I thought had all the answers. I was soon to realize that there was a missing piece of my puzzle. I had put up a wall.

The Missing Piece

I thought I was grounded, aligned, and speaking my truth, but there was a HUGE piece missing.

I had my numerology done. The four cards I got revealed my missing piece:

1. MARY MAGDALENE = UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. “Love yourself, others, and every situation – no matter what the outward appearances may be.”
2. I LISTEN WITH LOVE TO MY BODY’S MESSAGES = SELF LOVE. “My body is always working toward optimum health. My body wants to be whole and healthy. I cooperate and become healthy, whole and complete.”
3. CHIMPANZEE = THE UNEXPECTED AND INCREDIBLE BELONG TO THIS WORLD. ONLY THEN IS LIFE MADE WHOLE. “Use both your intuition and your intellect to solve the problem or get answers to your questions.”
4. BELSSINGS! “You are being showered with light. Your creativity is being stirred, activated, set alight! An endless stream of rainbow colour stems from your heart.”

These cards made me realized the missing piece of my puzzle: SELF LOVE, or as some refer to it…UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

To me, these four cards showed me how to feel my heart finally open. To let go, forgive, and move forward. My biggest hurdle was MYSELF!! We truly are our own worst critic, and when we listen too long to the little “voices” inside our heads saying everything is good, it can actually turn into our new reality.

I finally allowed the wall to come down. All this time I never knew I had a wall in my way. In retrospect I was keeping that wall up to protect against past memories, past emotions, feelings, stories, and the worst part was I had no idea I was still keeping that wall as my security blanket.

Those four cards gave me my light bulb moment when everything made perfect sense. Then I finally I did something about it by changing my patterns to allow myself to give and receive love.

I believed deep down in my heart that I am destined to do great things, but I didn’t see all the beautiful things I had already accomplished. Seriously, I have done some amazing things that I am proud of in my life.

And now that I had a renewed energy and self-awareness, I knew I could continue to do these things I am destined to do, while appreciating everything I had already done. And once that actually sank in I felt my soul light up even more. I felt my heart!

My heart! It’s true! I felt it. And then guess what happened? HAPPINESS, LIFE, LAUGHTER and LOVE. I was able to give love, but most of all I was finally able to receive love, accept love, and I know I deserved to be loved.

Let me end on a positive affirmation for this beautiful day:

HAPPINESS IS NOT A MATTER OF HAVING ALL THE ANSWERS, BUT OF LISTENING CLOSELY TO THE QUESTIONS OF THE HEART.

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